you have every reason to doubt me
with all that you have been through
that's why I could never be upset with you
it's not that I never get upset at all
you know I do, in missing you
it is just that I will not be selfish
by having expectations for you to fulfill
especially
when you are in the depths of your pain
alchemy of me
transmutation of lead into gold
in order to free myself
to love fully and completely
to be able to give the way I want to
to give to you the freedom
to feel your own feelings
without the burden of mine